ChojinRyu750

It seems the dark thoughts involving certain people have resurfaced again, and though I am trying hard not to think about them they seem to persistently want to appear in my head. I am beginning to wonder if these are premonitions of things to come...lord god almighty I hope not.

All I can do is hope and pray and do my best to not give in but I fear that may be easier said than done.

I have been doing some thinking lately and none of it is good. For the first time in a long, long, long time I feel lost. I can't get a job to help my dad out because there is nothing available here in Massachusetts and my father who has advanced Neuropathy in his feet and diabetes can't get disability, fuel assistance, or even find a job either. It's almost like we've been cursed I mean who did we piss off in the upper story to earn such suffering? I have applied to several jobs already and all of it has come up to zero, zip, nada.

I want to remain positive but this is making it a bit hard to remain optimistic. Also I would like to apologize to the guy who posted that article about Warner Bros coming up with a suicide squad and say that the comment I left was...made unjustly for there was no need or right for me say what I said last night. So if you read this know that I am sorry and hope you can forgive me.

Isn't it a great world we live in where a person can't get a fucking job to save one's ass and that no matter how many times you apply there is nothing available. A real great fucking world a real great piece of fucking shit. I wish this world would burn and that every fucking soul in it would drown in a sea of blood. Yes right now seeing this world in a smoldering pile of ashes would do my heart good. Because right now I hate the world and everyone in it with the exception of my friends because I can't hate them.

What I would give to...sigh never mind I've said enough. Have a nice Fucking Day.

Isn't it a great world we live in where a person can't get a fucking job to save one's ass and that no matter how many times you apply there is nothing available. A real great fucking world a real great piece of fucking shit. I wish this world would burn and that every fucking soul in it would drown in a sea of blood. Yes right now seeing this world in a smoldering pile of ashes would do my heart good. Because right now I hate the world and everyone in it with the exception of my friends because I can't hate them.

What I would give to...sigh never mind I've said enough. Have a nice Fucking Day.

For those who I talked with I deeply thank you for your council, with everything that has been going on here at home and with those wonky thoughts that were in my head I needed the support. But anyway, since the thoughts I mentioned haven't happened I am happy to say Code 45 will not happen. So rest easy.

So in closing I thank you for your support once more and wish you to all have a pleasant day or evening.

Stay frosty everone,

sincerely,

The Dragon